A Pathetic Human Being -- on epiphanies...

It simply was a depressing time. He simply was a pathetic human being. The self-realization was compact, direct and… simple. It was as if he himself brought to his presence a wonderful and tightly wrapped package.

So in his own reality he created a scenario:

The contents were singular. In the package was a Yak Bak. This antiquated ancient artifact added a retrospective element to his experience. He knew what it was. It was an emblem of innocence. It was one tightly wound and deep reaching symbol but the referent was not easily defined.

This creature, being graced with an infinite capability for inner-reality scenario creation did not take long to arrange the scenario in which this Yak Bak was created and for what it was destined.

[[[ A moment to explain the importance of ‘inner-reality scenario creation’ (termed as such for lack of better symbols). As a pathetic human being that spends the majority of time drawn inward and in solitary presence it is quite difficult to be convinced by outward sources and inward reflection that the scenarios created in the mind are less of a reality than that which is experienced in the physical realm in which we all assume we participate. One self-aware that they are subject to such a tendency must consciously convince and remind oneself that a scenario (complete with actors from their physical reality, actions, idea exchanges, dialogue, etc.) created in their mind was nothing more than an scenario experienced in their inner reality. They must remind themselves that the actors in their inner reality that match actors in the physical reality in appearance and name are not necessarily co-dependent. One cannot hold resentment for a peer in the physical reality for the actions they performed in the inner reality. For some a meditative and conscious practice is needed to harness and control this. Some have no control. Some are not aware. Some do not care. Many do not compartmentalize and all realities blur into one mesh. We will not speak to the ethics, what should or shouldn’t be, nor of the consequences… it is how it occurs. ]]]

Knowing the Yak Bak’s origins he was hesitant to push the ‘play’ button being fearful of what he himself had recorded for he himself to hear. He knew the actors in all realities represented one referent that shared all the same information. But lost in his own network he could not seem to find the memory among his countless libraries. He could not find the memory, a caveat, to prepare himself for a more than likely epiphany. Perhaps this is more than likely as he programmed it. Planned it. Formed and molded what was to be.

He feared epiphanies. He feared the existence outside of time. He feared the moment that could not exactly be defined as a moment. Better said, it was an idea without form. He feared the form he must place following the epiphany. As with any great ‘ah-hah!’ there came the come down in which confrontation of the self and others were necessary. There came the pain of growing and changing. The pain of adapting. The unraveling of what the idea meant and was meant to be; how it played out in his realities. Fear, pain, unknowns… “Better it be me,” he thought, “for I am truly addicted to functioning outside of my first reality.” Addicted to fear, or rather, the beautiful consequences of confronting a fear, he finally pushed ‘play’.

He heard a voice of a child. He knew it to be he.

…. “You are to enter a great War. There will be a tearing of realities and the soldiers of the future will not firing weapons but typing. Ideas will be your weapons and practice in alternative realities. Be comfortable being adaptive and perform actions mentally, digitally and physically. Last of all, stop being a pathetic human being” ….

He had closed his eyes as he listened and was willingly, dutifully and intentionally existing in the margins of realities. Time became an elementary concept. He was again wandering in an epiphany. At once, from his center, simultaneously gazing and studying every reality. With every perspective he took in the details while keeping the forest for the trees. Then the rush of epiphany awakened every component and he was ready.

It had been too long since he was not the pathetic human being. It had been too long that he allowed the actions of others in a single physical reality rule and victimize his story. Ready he was and ready he is to jump in as a cog in a machine, a universe among universes ready to function as one complete being and fix these ruptures and cancer in our realities.

hard reset

Amber Case made a case that shook the bass… NO, THE BASE!

Foundation, cornerstone, pillar, etc.

it caused an identity crisis of my 1^st and 2^nd self

all the while lasers deflected off my empty brain case

and I seemed lost in analog and digitism

+++ I KNEW NOT IF YOU WERE A ‘1’ OR ‘0’ +++

and thought, “fuck it, there no longer remains physical operations”

then determined it appropriate to store

the frontal lobe in the nearest whore – (which could be a quasi-techie tuna stuff Apple Store)

my best browser-mate wonderfully named, “TOR”!

Next came the rave,

a lustful digital indulgence in new age hedonism

APPs, open-forums, social media, and the I-store

gimme more mORE MORE!!!

Unable to quench the urge to surge

I took an erotic shower of 1s & 0s

and let the information pour over and soak into me

like a (bit)torrent of flurry and power!

I made a visit to the Pirate Bay

the FBI said, “that’s not fucking a-o-k!”

and decided, I, to create an autonomous avatar

to take me onward to digital frontiers

and as I float and swerve through my binary matrix

I aim for a wormhole as my hard reset.

Science Fiction

An insightful comment in response to article:
 Evan Stover
May 02, 2012 1:43am

Hello, Rebecca,
You are the first person I have heard make this comparison publicly, and it does, to me, seem almost too apropos... I had been wondering myself whether the author intended it to be a commentary on our current situation. I was talking recently with a radical East Indian activist who put forth an interesting perspective on it, however, when I suggested that I saw the story as an allegorical attack on our mores and systems. Admittedly she had not read it and was basing her response on my description, but I do feel her take is worth repeating. She feels that the background of the story - that of a global conflict which led to the survivors forming the thirteen colonies - actually feeds into the fear mythos of the powers that be, especially when considering the target audience of the series. She feels that rather than it being a diatribe against inhumanity, it actually supports our whole obsession with the inevitability of war, of doom, of a future which we'll have to survive rather than create.
Someone in a position of influence (could have been someone in Obama's Administration) recently was complaining that science fiction is always too glum about the future, that it is constantly portraying a dismal or even disastrous period ahead which the various protagonists are living through or dealing with in various ways. Personally I feel that there is a lot of that genre that is a serious attempt to look ahead from present trends and tendencies and to mirror the darker sides of our human nature as a warning, to wake us from our fascination with technology and remind us that we must be very careful since it is essentially only a few millennia since our primitive brains were dictating our activities. It is no longer in the interest of the human race to act as if every stranger is a threat, or to feel - like a child of a large family at the dinner table - that we must grab at whatever is near us and hoard it against potential famine, to the detriment of any other unfortunates at the meal.
To the degree that there still seem to be many, many people out there who are determined NOT to see the disturbing aspects of our human civilizations, I think perhaps yet another vision which almost literally throws them back in our face may be helpful: it is so important to wake up and see ourselves as we are - an amazingly creative species which has powerful self-destructive tendencies when common sense is ignored. But I do see the aforementioned activist's point also, that young people need to have hope rooted in a determination to create the kind of world they would LIKE to live in, rather than giving them the sense that - no matter what they do - their best chance is only to survive in the world previous generations are busy foisting on their backs. The Occupy movement is just such a declaration of determination, as I see it: at its root it is a dramatic, vital, radical re-envisioning of human values and relationships, not just with each other, but with the earth itself... a powerful rejection of habitual negativity and short-sightedness. It says, to paraphrase the Hunger Games cry: "We shall make our own odds, in humanity's favor".

unfinished "money" opinion.

We have to keep money out of occupy because that holds it in check only to grow as a true grassroots and populous movement. Money begets agenda…

- When necessity for money (e.g. bail funds, etc.) the populous will rally around cause and quickly bring funds forward. When fundraising is a motive to store up cash then the money is a forethought and agenda is directed toward that. And we all know what happens after that don’t we? Poop.

- If we want to get past a monetary system (which begets evil, 1% sorta thing!) we act as without that system (i.e. live our ideology directly) and without doing so only are doomed to repeat the continuous mistakes of past “revolutions”. Paradigm shift, not reform. Fuck reform.

- Keep money autonomous. One-time use, etc. when needed. Not appropriate to make an agenda that’s formulated around allocating money. Same ol’ same ol’ and does nothing to exemplify the change we desire. If we do not want an economic system which begets inequality, etc. (all the issues we harp and protest around) then we have to minimize our participation in such a system. Having a job is not a fault, especially when it’s to maintain a familial unit, but the fault is found in organizing in methods all too familiar to failure or exploitation. Example: let’s not ever lobby congress or raise money to have the funds to battle an issue. This creates alienation and marginalization of those who disagree. To remain grassroots one has to remain fiscally inept, “under-funded”, etc. so it cannot act as the corrupting/manipulating power that it is. The true rallying point is not the money raised and the direction that money takes when agenda is created, but rather, the ability to remain loosely organized, transparent, all-inclusive, etc. Money corrupts and takes us away from those grassroots principles. Money in Occupy will not get anymore of the 99% out in the streets than any other lobbying group, mainstream media news source, bourgeois NGO, etc. Occupy will then be lost to those elite groups pushing their own agendas rather than the agenda of the 99%. They will no longer be an appendage of this movement, i.e. the global paradigm shift.

- AGAIN, lack of money creates broad and general rallying cries which unify the 99%. On the other hand excess money creates competition between affinity groups who view their cause as more important and pressing than another. Let affinity groups store and constantly raise money and do with it as they wish.

- OCCUPY IS AN IDEA, IDEA’S ARE HARD PRESSED TO KEEP A FORM AND THAT IS ONE OF THE KEY SURVIVING ELEMENTS TO A MOVEMENT THAT OCCUPY SHOULD BE SYMBOLIZING. IF OCCUPY FAILS TO SYMBOLIZE THAT THEN ANOTHER SYMBOL WILL EMERGE AND THE REFERENT WILL REMAIN THE SAME.